Really

OK.. So I feel like that girl in Will Wonka.. Daddy, I want it NOW!! I know .. patience. There is so much else going on .. I just want it to be my turn! I am mentally ready.. I just need to start tasting various protein supplements! And get some basic supplies.. small cups, ice cream maker, blender...
I am still not smoking.. and NO Weight gain!! WOO HOO!!!
Am I nervous? Of course.... it seems that you are either a success... or you will become debilitated by this surgery... really?

Step One... or is it Step 3?

I am not sure which step this is.. tonight is the seminar for Bon Secours... I am very excited! I think I ahve all what I need for tonight. I do need to make a list of diets I have tried in the last 29 or so years.. WOW... that is a LONG time.... since I was 13! And the bad thing is while I was heavy in high school, I was only in a 16-18! Not that bad... Sheesh...
So, I have stopped smoking! yea! Thank God for Ice Water - it has been a life saver!
I have made the decision - not an easy feat for me!
So I suppose this is step 3!
And inbetween I have researched the hell out of gastric bypass!

Monday

Well.. the great news is I am still NOT smoking!! WOOOO HOOOOO.... Tomorrow evening I go to the information session at bon secours - I am very excited! Of course, I will be honest, I am wanting the surgery NOW!!! Ok.. I really would like to have it in a month! But I just do not think that will happen! So, I will probably have to wait to July! Fun times!!! :(

What I need to start doing now!

1. Stop smoking - Today, March 11th, will be the day!
2. Exercise - walk! - The doggies will enjoy as well!
3. Chew chew - I do not chew my food as well as I should - nor as well as I will have to.
4. No liquid with meals - 30 min b4 or after - just to get in the habit!
5. No straw - This one is going to hurt --- my teeth
6. No soda - I can do it! I do not want to ruin the surgery
7. Small bites - again, now way I do this now!
8. lower caffeine intake -
9. Vitamins - need to take them EVERYDAY! !

Reasons I want to lose weight

1. I want to be HEALTHY
2. I want to Lower my BP
3. I want to not become Diabetic
4. I want my knees to stop hurting
5. I want to Lower my Cholesterol
6. I want to be more active
7. I want to have more energy
8. I want to go out west to see the mountains
9. I want to hike and camp more
10. I want to be able to ride rides at theme parks –I still might not – but I will be able to!
11. I want to cross my legs - although not good for you!
12. I want to be able to buy clothes anywhere
13. I want pretty
14. I want to know what I will look like thin

Fears

Here are some fears of having surgery

• something going terribly wrong during surgery
• having horrible side affects after surgery
• being judged for having the surgery
• I fear that I will not know what to think of me thin - I have always hidden behind my fat... it is time to come out from the fat - I came out of the closet - and that was way easier!
• Weight Regain