Still...

I am still not smoking! Still on track! Still want someone to cancel so I can get to the Doc sooner!! But, it will happen when it is supposed to!

Seminar

OK.. so I went to the seminar. I am ready. LOL. Ok, really, I have to wait until April 24 to have my FIRST appointment?!?!? OK, must learn patience. I filled out the on-line survey.. WOW... what a lot! And so I get to call in the morning and get on the "Cancellation" list! WOO HOO I really liked Dr. Spencer. Funny - dry funny. So, I am ready to go! And have several other things to do... so let me get going!!

Step One... or is it Step 3?

I am not sure which step this is.. tonight is the seminar for Bon Secours... I am very excited! I think I ahve all what I need for tonight. I do need to make a list of diets I have tried in the last 29 or so years.. WOW... that is a LONG time.... since I was 13! And the bad thing is while I was heavy in high school, I was only in a 16-18! Not that bad... Sheesh...
So, I have stopped smoking! yea! Thank God for Ice Water - it has been a life saver!
I have made the decision - not an easy feat for me!
So I suppose this is step 3!
And inbetween I have researched the hell out of gastric bypass!

Monday

Well.. the great news is I am still NOT smoking!! WOOOO HOOOOO.... Tomorrow evening I go to the information session at bon secours - I am very excited! Of course, I will be honest, I am wanting the surgery NOW!!! Ok.. I really would like to have it in a month! But I just do not think that will happen! So, I will probably have to wait to July! Fun times!!! :(

Nicotine

WOW.. Let me say that I will not smoke again, as long as I remeber how hard getting the nicotine out of my system has been. I got home from work and slept - took Katie to practice - and slept till 945pm - than was out at midnite! Nuts!

I have had

MY LAST CIGARETTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What I need to start doing now!

1. Stop smoking - Today, March 11th, will be the day!
2. Exercise - walk! - The doggies will enjoy as well!
3. Chew chew - I do not chew my food as well as I should - nor as well as I will have to.
4. No liquid with meals - 30 min b4 or after - just to get in the habit!
5. No straw - This one is going to hurt --- my teeth
6. No soda - I can do it! I do not want to ruin the surgery
7. Small bites - again, now way I do this now!
8. lower caffeine intake -
9. Vitamins - need to take them EVERYDAY! !

Reasons I want to lose weight

1. I want to be HEALTHY
2. I want to Lower my BP
3. I want to not become Diabetic
4. I want my knees to stop hurting
5. I want to Lower my Cholesterol
6. I want to be more active
7. I want to have more energy
8. I want to go out west to see the mountains
9. I want to hike and camp more
10. I want to be able to ride rides at theme parks –I still might not – but I will be able to!
11. I want to cross my legs - although not good for you!
12. I want to be able to buy clothes anywhere
13. I want pretty
14. I want to know what I will look like thin

Fears

Here are some fears of having surgery

• something going terribly wrong during surgery
• having horrible side affects after surgery
• being judged for having the surgery
• I fear that I will not know what to think of me thin - I have always hidden behind my fat... it is time to come out from the fat - I came out of the closet - and that was way easier!
• Weight Regain

Decision Time

Well, it has not been an easy choice.

And not one I am taking lightly, but it is time. I go on March 17th to an information session with Bon Scours and I will go from there. I am looking at having the bypass surgery.

First and foremost I have made this decision for my weight. I am 42 years old and I have high BP, am pre-diabetic, and my joints have started to hurt - espicially my knees. I am 5'6" and 285#'s -- that is just too much!

I have been overweight forever! OK.. since i was 13 or so... but it sure seems like forever. It will be a thrill to see me thin!